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Monday, August 30, 2004

ok ive got terrible luck.

last night i decided that i shld not watch the closing ceremony after all, or i will just die the next day...so at around 1am i decided i shld go and sleep. then, the next morning, i woke with this irritating throbbing pain in my head. after breakfast i just puked everything i ate out...yeah well so after i cleaned up i had missed the school bus. therefore i decided that i shld just go the dortor and get an mc. by the time i got to hpps, my headache was gone. luckily we didnt have any tests today...

do you think theyll have an encore of the olympics closing ceremony? they shld. and they shld replay some other stuff too, like li jia wei and ronald susilos matches. yeah i think they will. shall watchthose then. :)

5:33 PM
Sunday, August 29, 2004

finally, the last of the olympics. 16 days of intense competition, now drawing to an end. the athletes who had competed must have felt really stressed, i mean its like once in 4 years, and if they screw up theyll have to wait for another 4 more years. a lot of pple screwed up, like johnson and his hurdles, and the china mens diving team. both cld have won the gold medal, but it looks like theyre not fated to be so. and li jia wei, she got so irritated by that koreans screams [which according to the papers, mean nothing even in korean] that she lost the game, and later on she got irritated again by the other koreans defensive tactics. basically she lost control of herself and got irritated. but i guess shes still young and can afford to wait for the next olympics, together with ronald susilo, her soon-to-be husband.

i think the best thing i liked abt the olympics is the music. they have beautiful music that can really move you. and the song they kept playing, "a moment like this" i think, i think its really touching, especially with the pictures [in slow motion] behind. i rmb the last time i heard it was together with the ad for ametican idol. but that wasnt as motivational as this. i will never go for something like that because...well i just wont, and so i cant really relate to that. im not going to take part in the olympics either [yeah i can dream on abt it], but ive always enjoyed it. those pple are really something, crashing their limits. it takes guts to do something like that.

im going to stay up tonight and watch the closing ceremony. i missed the opening ceremony cos i forgot abt it. i dont usually like to see things end, but this is somewhat different. its going to be something i will regret not seeing if i missed it.

"and there the flame is sacrificed - to prepare for its next."

5:03 PM
Friday, August 27, 2004

this is going to be an entry that youre not gonna like.

i hate pple more and more each day i realized. but strangely i hate the pple most pple like. for example her who is ever so irritating. i cant stand her for goodness sake why cant she just look herself in the mirror properly for once. its time she realized how gross she looks. and the hypocritical her, always sucking up to pple. and we human beings are such stupid things that we actually believe whatever she says and gives in to her sucking up [including me]. i am so pissed at her but i can tell no one cos everyone thinks shes so great and wonderful and possibly the nicest person in the world. wake up all of you, stop being so blind. cant you see that shes just a worthless hypocrite? if someones sincere you can see and feel it. you feel the deep sincerity, and not the casual concern. for gods sake start thinking, and not just see the surface of everything.

7:11 PM
Thursday, August 26, 2004

i think singapore idol is sweet! i liked david de cruz...until i realized he cant sing for nuts. hes so cocky! i thought dwyne [is this how you spell his name?] was good...he has a really refreshing voice...and he is cute...not the handsome cute but the adorable cute la. david yeo is...action cute. but hes a bit too "beng". he doesnt have the charisma of an idol. jeassea is the idol-ly type, but i never liked deep voices like hers. and i thought jane chia sang well...she did, didnt she? olinda cho...ok i dont like her. much. she really doesnt have the looks...but then again i guess looks isnt everything...as for grp 2, i think i only like nathaniel, but then again, thats based on his looks and looks only.

i am so totally bored. how come nothing interesting ever happens to me so that i can have something decent to blog abt? this is boring to write and boring to read. its so hard to keep a blog, especially a public one. ok i do have private blogs...but yeah theyre private so no one gets to see them. and the public ones, you never know whos reading them either. in public blogs i blog abt things that i dont mind pple knowing, which isnt a lot really. two grps of pple i blog abt here, track and my classmates...i think thats all right? sometimes i wonder why do pple like to read commentaries of things that theyve witnessed themselves [do you all really do?]...its kind of strange...i get bored doing that myself. ive got so many links on my blog, and only 7 of which are really active. the rest are just there for...well pple who are bored, like _____ [dont bother counting the number of underscrolls that made up that blank cos i just randomly typed it in so].

the olympics are drawing to a close. it isnt really that exciting, except for that one moment that it finally began...four years of waiting. then after that...everythings just ----------. i shall begin my waiting again then. just for that short moment of contentment.

10:29 PM
Wednesday, August 25, 2004

a long time since i last blogged [5 days, to be exact]. i havent been doing a lot of things, had two CAs, but yeah thats abt all. watched a bit of the olympics...the athletes are beautiful. they dont need to have nice perfect bodies to look beautiful, but theres something abt them that makes them special.

i dont know what to blog abt. when i first started this blog i blog abt everything and anything, in fact i think i blogged abt every single trng. but now im too...lazy to blog i guess [dont you guys get tired of reading my everyday life anyway?]. yeah, so im being nice you see, im trying not to bore you guys out! ok nvm scrape that. im just being lazy. and for that i shall go be lazy now. goodbye and have fun.

7:05 PM
Wednesday, August 18, 2004

i.screwed.up.my.english.oral.

:( it went badly...the teacher was so...strange! i was stammering through the reading passage! and she asked really hard questions! what effects does tourism have on the daily lives of singaporeans? what kind of a question is that!!! she cant do this! i really didnt know how to answer la! and i was just so nervous. i wish i had last years teacher...joseph toh! hes really smiley and you wont feel nervous if youre with him ok! well, but nvm, its already over, and its only 2% anyway...

oh well. better luck for tmrs lit unseen prose! :)

6:27 PM
Tuesday, August 17, 2004

and this is to all the pple who are feeling sad:

im not going to tell you theres nothing to be sad abt, because there are indeed many saddening things. but things are not always as bad as they look, you might have missed out on the better parts to it cos you were so busy being depressed. nevertheless, theres a key to every door and a solution to every problem, you just need to find it yourself. its going to take you some time before you can recover, but eventually you will, and when you do you will be laughing at how you had reacted so drastically to such a small matter. so cheer up, evrythings going to get better. :)

7:23 PM

tmr english oral!!!

ok thats not good. i think i will just screw it up, as i did to many other things. sliding.
trng today was very slack. played netball. we lost 0-1. haha! half-an-hour and only a single pt! almost like soccer! wanyi was really ji dong during the game...was shouting very loudly. emily was going mad la! she looked like shes dancing some stick dance. oh oh! the pole dance! right. im going out of pt. yeah. we ended at 430, one the shortest trngs ever!

im gaining weight! i do hope we dont have to take the fat test, but they said everyone needs to take it! i have no idea why sharon wants to take it! poo! shes skinny la! and karen! no one can beat her! unless youre anorexic of course...

ok the oral. i cant stop tahinking abt it. last year got joseoh toh, but he was very nice and kept smiling! i want him again! but the first half got him...so maybe we wont get him then...dont know la! i just want a nice teacher!

7:07 PM
Sunday, August 15, 2004

lookie, im still here. yay.

ive been at home these few days. doing work. see im a good girl. yupp! :)
i have got english orals on wed. its going to turn out terrible cos i absolutely dont know what to do. the ad part is irritating. they should just give us a photo to talk abt. yeah that will be so much better. who cares abt ads anyway?

i finally finished my zuoye. i feel so guilty for not doing it. the fact that shes so nice just makes everything worse. she says shes going to mark it late if we dont hand it in by sat she wld mark it late. can you believe it? shes only going to mark it late. yeah, so if we handed it in on sat then she wont mark it late, although its actually abt, a month late? yeah. it makes a lot of sense, doesnt it?

look look, i need to mug for bio. mug mug. oh yeah im mugging. one problem. ive got nothing to mug on - no notes, not anything relevant at least. oh so where did she post the ppt slides? theyre not on inet, or are they? i thought i rmb hearing something abt the class server...someone pls enlighten me. i really have no idea whats happening. im going to fail that test. it was easy but im going to fail it. ive caught glimpses of whatever was in that test that morning when i was flipping through kylies notes. yeah ok i didnt really rmb anything from her notes cos i only had like, half an hour to study. i did rmb where the info were, though. it was on a page with a lot of words, third paragraph. i just didnt know what it said. ok so that wasnt much help.

wed. lets see what happens on wed. i really dont like english orals. i dont see why we need them.

9:07 PM
Saturday, August 14, 2004

right. i just watched the notebook, yeah its nc-16 i know, but somehow i managed to get in. it was a nice show, sweet and touching...but typical romance story.

its really strange...i thought abt something rather unexplainable today. and i realized that i cant talk to anyone. isnt it strange? so many pple i know yet i cant find a person to tell this to. ok even if there is such a person, i dont think i will know how to say it properly. i will probably just end up staring at that person and keeping everything to myself. theres like, 3 or 4 pple whom i actually can tell and am willing to tell, but they wouldnt care if i did. im really confused. i think im going mad. ok madder. im contemplating the several stress relief methods. i thought sharon was funny. she made that sound so pretty/ordinary, like it was a very normal thing to do. ok maybe it is. i dont know. yeah i like that heart, does that count?

i think im too...closed. i need to talk. anyone wants to talk to me? no i promise i wont talk nonsense this time. oh but you might not make a lot of sense out of it anyway, cos im mad and youre not. yeah maybe i will talk nonsense again. yadda-yadda. ok i sound pathetic, so self-pitying. i feel like swearing. no swearings not good. very bad indeed. do i sound mad? yeah ok i know i do. you dont have to tell me again although i asked. it was meant to be a rhetorical question. you dont answer rhetorical questions, did you know that? yeah you did. i realized. sorry im a bit slow today. so lame and rubbish. i feel like eating fish. i want a _________ or a __________. i would prefer the former one. thank you very much.

7:53 PM
Friday, August 13, 2004

you are dark slate gray
#2F4F4F

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well.

Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan.

Your outlook on life is dark. You're generally a pessimist and everyone knows it; you're the one the come to when they don't want the sunshine blown around, they just want to straight truth. You can miss good things in life if you make up your mind too early though.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

8:27 PM

had the stupid chinese test today...it was so hard! ok im not supposed to blog abt the questions that came out...but its just so so so so hard!! gosh this is the worst paper ive ever taken. turns my mood black. i left four blanks! what rubbish. thats 4 marks gone...yeah but im sure i will get a lot more wrong. i didnt have time to finish the summary...i ended up not looking at the paper but rather writing crap based on my understanding of the text cos i only had 5 minutes left by the time i started writing the words down. screwed. im going to fail, and no one is going to tell me thats not possible. bleh. i feel horrible. :(

i went to google just now. they have this nice new logo...olympics athens. its really cute...but thats irrelevant.

se nes cene, leanne. yes.

7:42 PM
Tuesday, August 10, 2004

sleepover!!! right i ought to blog abt that! haha it was really very funny!

we gathered at candices house at around 630...i missed the stop and i had to walk from king albert park to 3rd ave ok! and then her house got one very steep slope some more! i swear its more than 45 degrees from ground level!!! [ok maybe not really, but its close to that la] i wasnt the last to arrive although i was late, but everyone else came even later! haha!! we waited for a while more, until sab came, then prepared the foodstuff we intended to dump on xiaohui when she arrives. lulu and emily were supposed to meet xiaohui and candice by chance, and candice will ask them if they want to go to her house for dinner...then thats when we come in! when she finally arrived, me, sab, ethel and sherie hid behind the gate, and rushed out the moment she enters, and amy hid herself opposite us to catch everything on her digicam! we were supposed to throw her into the pool, then dump her with all the whipped cream, marshmallow sauce, etc, but then emily started squeezing whipped cream onto her head even before we managed to grab her! so we had to scrape the part abt dumping her into the pool...so sad! anyway she got really really dirty so i guess its quite enough la! hahaha! you shld really see her man...she looks "hot and flustered"! im innocent i must say, though, all i did was to smash a plate of marshmallow sauce thing onto her face. mmhmm. innocent me.
so we all sat down and ate after that, poor xiaohui had to go bathe... then after dinner we started dunking pple into the pool! it was so fun! we got sabby down first, then ethel and lulu...and then it was so stupid la! candice was laughing by the poolside and they [yeah, not "we", cos innocent me was not involved] just pushed her in! hahaha! so funny! oh later we dunked half the pple in, only lijun, ms zhang, janessa and xiaohui didnt get dunked. ms zhang cso shes out teacher, lijun and janessa cos they were hiding in the room, and xiaohui cos we are all nice pple who took pity on her and decided that we shld not be so mean to her - shes had enough for a birthday! when they wanted to dunk me, i decided that i didnt want that and so i ran off at first, took a detour around candices house, and went back to the pool to jump in myself. it sure feels better this way! oh yes lijun was so funny! when we were eating the cake, candice and sab tried to dunk her, she said, "you dare!", sab went "yeah we dare!", or something like that. then they started chasing her, and lijun went, "i kick you huh!", it was super hilarious the way she said it! we were all like, "oh yes thats SO scary.", then they didnt really get her la, so she went, "ha!" and ran off...shes so amusing! but in the end she got away la...such a pity...
then later we ate the chocolate oreo cheesecake...quite nice...i broke two forks though. me and emily both got the cakes flying onto our shirts...dont even know how that happened. and then emily went mad and took amys towel and started flapping it around - it wiped my cake off la! then i decided that i shldnt eat it since it got dirty, instead, i wanted to smash it onto sabs face! but she was wearing specs...so yeah well i decided on emily instead, since she was the one who made my cake inedible in the first place. yupp! we got together for a grp photo, then just as sab pressed the shutter, i smashed the plate onto her face!!! hahaha! it was really amusing! and some more she thought that wanyi was the one ok! she smeared cake onto wanyis hair! but then later when she came back from the toilet she made some disgusting mixture of chilli powder and chocolate sauce and tried to smear my face with that...its sick ok! i think im going to get pimples...and if i do its all her fault! :(
by eleven most pple had left, only me, lulu, wanyi, xiaohui, candice [duh its her house], emily and janessa were left. janessa was watching city of angels, and xiaohui was dozing off on the floor with her face buried in her homework, a thick stack of abt 10cm high. then later xiaohui, me, janessa and lulu decided to go to sleep instead of going out with them. at first all four of us wanted to sleep upstairs in candices room, but then it was too squishy, so janessa and lulu moved downstairs. i stayed upstairs with xiaohui and candice, who started some i-tell-you-you-tell-me-i-dont-tell-you-you-dont-tell-me-we-both-dont-tell-each-other-anything argument. they were mad la. i felt like a total gooseberry. shld have gone downstairs with lulu and janessa. well anyway candice left later with wanyi and emily to town for a movie. yupp! finally some peace...i cld sleep in the silent darkness at last.
the next morning, xiaohui woke me up with her funny whiny noises. she continued sleeping. i tried to, but soon sfter emily came up, back from their trip to town, and stuck this snakehead into my face! heyy it was so scary lo! waking up to see this rainbow-coloured thing right in front of you! so i got up, only to find emily sleeping soundly downstairs. -_- yeah thats so nice. and so i went to do my homework in the livingroom, and promptly finished off my math assignment [hooray!]. yupp! then i went and woke lulu...and by ten janessa and candice were awake as well. xiaohui slept until 12, wanyi and emily 11+. lazy bums, all of them, espescially xiaohui since the other two only got back at around 7. lulu and janessa went home after breakfast, and the rest went out for lunch at nooch. after that xiaohui left, and emily, wanyi and i went back to candices house to get our things before heading home.
yupp and thats the end of the sleepover! it was a really enjoyable one! haha and happy belated birthday xiaohui!

4:33 PM
Sunday, August 08, 2004

i watched the village yesterday. tis a very strange tale indeed. i still am very confused abt the entire story. makes little sense to me but somehow its quite nice. its sweet and sorrowful. reminds me of romeo and juliet despite how different they are. i screamed twice during the whole show. it was really loud in the cinema...dolby surround i think. really freaked myself out. some more i think im the only one who actually screamed. even juju didnt scream. oh but im sure shes more scared than me!

my friends are all so...sad. theyve gone a bit cuckoo i think. maybe its just the stress. i met some of my nygh friends, they just look sad and act sad...but rgs pple are different. we go mad instead. well. cultural difference is it? but we are a bunch of strange pple. strangely crazy. even my dear class chair isnt as sane as before. her good friend too. haha!

im going to the funny surprise birthday party for xiaohui at candices place later. haha...its going to be really funny i think. another sleepover...they make me real tired despite the fact that theyre such enjoyable things. well. i still have lots of work to do. but yeah i will do them at night. hopefully i will be able to finish them. oh well, ive got things to pack. am not going to bring a lot this time. i hope.

1:49 PM
Friday, August 06, 2004

i am now in school. sigh. this is very pointless. i dont know where to go. so vored. leanne cant go out with me cos her mum wont let her. i dont want to go out with juju cos im going out with her tmr. i cant go out with my track friends either cos theyre all in their own grps! theres really nothing to do besides surfing around...i think i will go home in just a while.

my exams are starting in like, a week? the orals first of course. this year is very strange. i seem so blur cos i dont even know whats happening. i cant really rmb what exactly happened either. my mind is a swirl, its like someone painted a layer of semi translucent paint over my drawing, cant quite see whats underneath. but then again, maybe its better for me not to see it.

i just watched romeo and juliet with 214. its a really sweet show despite the inappropriate bits of humour here and there. i think its a little too casual. i wld have preferred it if it was entirely sad. yeah. this is like, a tragic comedy...or a comical tragedy...either way its the same. not very satisfying...

xiaohuis birthday is coming soon. i have absolutely no idea what to buy for her. shld have asked her bafore she left for her competition. but knowing her, she most probably wld have said something like "anything la!" not very helpful, eh? yeah so nvm la. anyone has any bright suggestions?

the classroom is a very nice place to think in. i think a lot more when im alone too.

1:07 PM
Wednesday, August 04, 2004

poof. oh well i got back my jap test today. :( i think its the worst test ive ever done. bleargh. nearly failed. that shld teach me not to miss so many lessons...four consecutive lessons before the test. smart man. but that was because of track! i had no choice la...poo!

how strange now it all seems. track is...over for this year. its really quite fast. barely half a year. hmm...this is not good. so quick. too quick.

8:01 PM
Monday, August 02, 2004

JUJU BOUGHT ME A NEW WALLET!! oh yes she really bought me one! that day i was just casually trying to persuade her to buy me one...and she really did! haha! isnt she sweeeeeeeeet! :) yupp! i was so stunned when she passed it to me today - i never did expect her to really buy me one...haha! well. yay i love my juju! despite the fact that she has terrible taste in her romeo. nvm. its over.

i saw lulu several times today. i was wondering how come she wasnt with xiaohui, then i promptly realized that xiaohui has went for her her asean schools! oops. me so blur. didnt even wish her gd luck! terrible. anyway, im sure she will do very well! :) good luck anyway! haha my suprepowers will carry the luck to you...

right. sharon is a bit mad. she likes sean/shawn/shaun. hes this kid from hpps. got a huge attitude problem. but sharon likes him. :P

5:54 PM
Sunday, August 01, 2004

finally, i got to watch spiderman2 with wanyi. heh. it was a really nice show. but i thought peter parker looked a bit retarded. spidey looked better in the first movie. oh but it was a good movie alright. i cried a bit, yeah.

then after wanyi left, i was supposed to go find sherie...but i called her so many times and she didnt pick up!! :( so i just went back. well while i was on my way home, i suddenly felt like watching another movie, alone. so i got off at jurong...it was already around 7:20pm then...i checked the timings but they were all inappropriate. well, i made a trip to the library instead. i didnt actually read there, but rather just wandered around, for like, one-and-a-half hours. after that i went to buy the ticket for i, robot. i told the person at the counter that i wanted the 9pm show, but she gave me the 9:30pm one anyway...so terrible one! so i had to bum around until 9:20 before they started admitting pple. yupp! it was a very nice show...i think i enjoyed it more than i enjoyed spiderman2...yeah. there was more suspense, and the computer effects were not bad too! heh. its a bit like A.I., but then i prefer the latter cos it made me cry like some idiot. no i dont prefer it cos i got to cry, but rather cos it was really very touching. *sniff sniff*

right, enough of the movies. i have a lot of homework to dooooooooooooo!!!! this is really bad! i feel very dumb cos im just staring at my bio worksheet not knowing what its talking abt. :( terrible...

3:18 PM